June 19 came and went as if nothing happened.
I guess that is how much we value our history.
but for this piece which i would call very untimely
and very late for this matter (forgive me for not posting for a very long time my blog)
i have to write something about Rizal and his supposedly being a martyr/hero for the country.
first and foremost IVE BEGUN TO HATE RIZAL and for this reason i looked for reasons why i hated him so much.
i guess its not my nature to just look up to a person without knowing his or her weaknesses and understanding how he/she overcame those.
At first i idolize him but little by little the more i get to know him the more i get irritated by him.
maybe if i met him today ill give him a mouthful of dissin after what he did for the revolution.
surely he wrote the Noli and El Fili but for what after not supporting the revolution and ven condemning it tll the end of his days?
He was an intellectual but for what reason? to give credence to the intellectuals of today who’d rather not move and go out of the country?
his brother i look up to but not to him.
His brother even went against the americans
his brother is the real hero of the revolution and of the rizals
if ill ever have the time ill write a book about his brother and not about him
i think he deserves more attention.
an american sponsored hero ideed
as opposed to ambeth ocampos rebuttal of Renato constantino Sr’s (see Veneration without understanding).
surely he was a hero even before the americans came yet i think the bulk of Constantinos assumptions was the psychological motivation behind every hero created in a peoples mind.
a hero in the mold of the colonizers viewpoint.
so what do i have to write about Rizal?
im going to write about his errors but take note maybe he didnt know about this mistakes in his time.
or maybe he chose to ignore them after being meticulously wanting to live a simple life with josephine.
(note that im writing this after listening to manny pacquiaos commercial of extreme magic sing)
error #1. He left the Masonry. (i dont understand why he did that i never really understand why he fucking did that)
error #2. He accepted Catholicism back before dying (tsk tsk a really good politician that even in death he thinks he could fool heaven)
error #3. He didnt escape from Dapitan and joined the rebels (STUPID STUPID STUPID PRICK)
error #4. He came back to the Philippines (for what?? so that he’d be captured???)
error #5. He didnt build close relationships with the dissenters instead he alienated himself from them (What the fuck is his problem???)
error #6. He chose to go to cuba rather than stay here and fight (what the hell?? is he somewhat a psychopath or what???)
error #7. He chose to remain silent while in his cell and hoped for the Government to listen to his appeal for innocence (like hello they would listen to you?)
error #8. He thought he could change the country by use of education and not by the end of a barrel of a gun. (this thing doesnt work please…)
error #9. He idolized the three priests and even dedicated his novels for them but he didnt live out their ideals and learned of their fate. (is this selective amnesia or something?)
error #10. He didnt became a katipunero. (such coward…)
these and a lot more. im sorry but the more i learn about him the more i get to HATE him yet i must admit he was only a victim of his times and just like many filipinos of today
he was also thinking of his family.
yes the one word and value that each and everyone of our countrymen has.
that is what differentiates us from foreigners
because he loved his family he chose to deny the call of his country
because he wanted to have a family he denied the opportunity of a better life for all filipinos.
i cant help but to compare him and Bonifacio who’s first martyr for the revolution was his only son.
the difference was perhaps Bonifacio had nothing to lose or yet he lost everything from the very begginning and took care of his brothers and sisters ever since.
Bonifacio with his family fought spain and thought that for a small piece of sacrifice a million people would benefit the same goes for the family of Rizal.
Bonifacio lived the hard life.
“isang kahig, isang tuka” as we call it.
while Rizal lived a well and sheltered one.
he only got affected when the spanish authorities bent on acquiring the lands of his family
took out their grudge against his mother and his brother.
lets just say that his hate meter got started when his loved ones were picked on
while Bonifacios’ hate meter sprung from the years of oppression he and his people of stature experienced.
just look at ibarra and elias in Rizals books you will know what im talking about.
so i guess its just wrong to call Rizal a hero
just as it is wrong to call the americans our emancipators.
Rizal was a hero in another way
a hero for the elite and the rich
a hero for the people with property
a hero for a class that cannot afford to lose its assets and lands.
and lastly a hero for those who still believed that fighting corruption and crime can be done through prayers and the church
which time and again had failed its mission of teaching good morals for its constituents.
i never hate religion
but when religion is working against me thats when i deem it toxic.
unfortunately what we look up to at luneta was and is a status symbol of the continuing oppression of our own countrymen over ours.
the icon of an unwilling sacrifice and selfish fortitude.
of two facedness and deceit.
a monument fit for cowards just as the one that stands over it is RIZAL…
I HATE RIZAL but if not for that hate i wouldnt be able to appreciate him more so i respect him.
for all its worth thank you for living a life where we can learn from.
I guess that is how much we value our history.
but for this piece which i would call very untimely
and very late for this matter (forgive me for not posting for a very long time my blog)
i have to write something about Rizal and his supposedly being a martyr/hero for the country.
first and foremost IVE BEGUN TO HATE RIZAL and for this reason i looked for reasons why i hated him so much.
i guess its not my nature to just look up to a person without knowing his or her weaknesses and understanding how he/she overcame those.
At first i idolize him but little by little the more i get to know him the more i get irritated by him.
maybe if i met him today ill give him a mouthful of dissin after what he did for the revolution.
surely he wrote the Noli and El Fili but for what after not supporting the revolution and ven condemning it tll the end of his days?
He was an intellectual but for what reason? to give credence to the intellectuals of today who’d rather not move and go out of the country?
his brother i look up to but not to him.
His brother even went against the americans
his brother is the real hero of the revolution and of the rizals
if ill ever have the time ill write a book about his brother and not about him
i think he deserves more attention.
an american sponsored hero ideed
as opposed to ambeth ocampos rebuttal of Renato constantino Sr’s (see Veneration without understanding).
surely he was a hero even before the americans came yet i think the bulk of Constantinos assumptions was the psychological motivation behind every hero created in a peoples mind.
a hero in the mold of the colonizers viewpoint.
so what do i have to write about Rizal?
im going to write about his errors but take note maybe he didnt know about this mistakes in his time.
or maybe he chose to ignore them after being meticulously wanting to live a simple life with josephine.
(note that im writing this after listening to manny pacquiaos commercial of extreme magic sing)
error #1. He left the Masonry. (i dont understand why he did that i never really understand why he fucking did that)
error #2. He accepted Catholicism back before dying (tsk tsk a really good politician that even in death he thinks he could fool heaven)
error #3. He didnt escape from Dapitan and joined the rebels (STUPID STUPID STUPID PRICK)
error #4. He came back to the Philippines (for what?? so that he’d be captured???)
error #5. He didnt build close relationships with the dissenters instead he alienated himself from them (What the fuck is his problem???)
error #6. He chose to go to cuba rather than stay here and fight (what the hell?? is he somewhat a psychopath or what???)
error #7. He chose to remain silent while in his cell and hoped for the Government to listen to his appeal for innocence (like hello they would listen to you?)
error #8. He thought he could change the country by use of education and not by the end of a barrel of a gun. (this thing doesnt work please…)
error #9. He idolized the three priests and even dedicated his novels for them but he didnt live out their ideals and learned of their fate. (is this selective amnesia or something?)
error #10. He didnt became a katipunero. (such coward…)
these and a lot more. im sorry but the more i learn about him the more i get to HATE him yet i must admit he was only a victim of his times and just like many filipinos of today
he was also thinking of his family.
yes the one word and value that each and everyone of our countrymen has.
that is what differentiates us from foreigners
because he loved his family he chose to deny the call of his country
because he wanted to have a family he denied the opportunity of a better life for all filipinos.
i cant help but to compare him and Bonifacio who’s first martyr for the revolution was his only son.
the difference was perhaps Bonifacio had nothing to lose or yet he lost everything from the very begginning and took care of his brothers and sisters ever since.
Bonifacio with his family fought spain and thought that for a small piece of sacrifice a million people would benefit the same goes for the family of Rizal.
Bonifacio lived the hard life.
“isang kahig, isang tuka” as we call it.
while Rizal lived a well and sheltered one.
he only got affected when the spanish authorities bent on acquiring the lands of his family
took out their grudge against his mother and his brother.
lets just say that his hate meter got started when his loved ones were picked on
while Bonifacios’ hate meter sprung from the years of oppression he and his people of stature experienced.
just look at ibarra and elias in Rizals books you will know what im talking about.
so i guess its just wrong to call Rizal a hero
just as it is wrong to call the americans our emancipators.
Rizal was a hero in another way
a hero for the elite and the rich
a hero for the people with property
a hero for a class that cannot afford to lose its assets and lands.
and lastly a hero for those who still believed that fighting corruption and crime can be done through prayers and the church
which time and again had failed its mission of teaching good morals for its constituents.
i never hate religion
but when religion is working against me thats when i deem it toxic.
unfortunately what we look up to at luneta was and is a status symbol of the continuing oppression of our own countrymen over ours.
the icon of an unwilling sacrifice and selfish fortitude.
of two facedness and deceit.
a monument fit for cowards just as the one that stands over it is RIZAL…
I HATE RIZAL but if not for that hate i wouldnt be able to appreciate him more so i respect him.
for all its worth thank you for living a life where we can learn from.
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